Today is the first of a blog series that I can only describe as Di’s Mind. You never know when it will show up, but I can guarantee you that it will give some insight into the hodgepodge of thoughts running through my head at any given time.
Since attending the 2015 Los Angeles Times Festival of Books last weekend, my mind has been doing somersaults. If you read my first blog post or follow me on Twitter, then you know that my goal is to be a writer. I took the first step towards writing two months ago when I started this blog. It was the first time that I showed people (outside of my immediate family) what my dreams were. I am aware that I still have a lot to learn about blogging, as well as the basic functions of how to maintain a website. I am also aware that writing a weekly blog about my thoughts may not get me published, but it makes me think about writing on a daily basis. An author this past weekend encouraged future writers to “practice writing” often, if not every day, just as you would a sport. The sports analogy made sense to me. So, I will continue to practice.
It was ten years ago when I turned a spiral notebook into my Writer’s Notebook of Ideas. It threw me aback when I realized how long ago that was. My ultimate goal is to write novels. To inspire, entertain, and educate through my words is a feeling that eats at my soul more and more every day. I have my ideas. I have some outlines. I just need to sit and write!
Fortunately for me, my full-time job as an educator, allows me to have a long summer break to write. However, I heard from another author this weekend who said that she is a full-time law professor and writes, after her daughter goes to bed, from 10:00PM-2:00AM. Yikes! I then thought, What is my excuse? Suddenly I felt my confidence slam into the wall of fear and insecurity! Why am I not doing this too? After piecing my confidence back together, I came to the realization that I would do what I can with the time that I have to give. The time that I have to give right now is 24 hours minus sleep, work day, after hours grading and planning, family dinner, and fitness/sports activities. Teaching isn’t just a job for me; I physically and emotionally bring work home. My students ARE my kids while they are in my class. Family time and conversation are also important to me. So, what do I do?
I know me well. The fact that I can immerse myself into any particular task or project means that something else falters. So, I came to the conclusion that, for now, I will write my blog, read as much as possible, and then create a schedule during my summer break for novel writing and blogging. By sharing this with you, it holds me accountable. I feel better already. Thank you for walking this journey with me.